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I was so desperately hoping it wasn’t true. Because it was my sister who found out before I did. But I saw my high school website and pretty much confirmed it. I never got to talk to her or thank her after that and I regret it so much right now. I should’ve contacted her in the summer even when I thought I was busy. It wouldn’t have hurt to take a day off from work or even just a few hours to go see her…



I felt like I wasn’t really prepared to work this semester but now after seeing everyone work and getting to know my work habits, I feel like I could work again. Or at least I want to. I got an interview offer for next week the day after my 2 midterms and the place I was meant to transfer, …uh I think I just made things more complicated than it needed to be. Because I just want a schedule where I don’t have to work too much. Somewhere flexible. We’ll see how this turns out.


At first I thought I was just being a klutz. Like I would forget where I left something like A MINUTE AGO. Then I realized, I feel like I’m also having speech problems…? That’s what it feels like… I feel like I’m having trouble remembering certain words so I end up saying a word that sounds like it. Is it because I haven’t been reading enough lately? Or was I always this stupid? Lol. I know forgetting words and places and stuff, it’s a symptom of alzheimer’s but it can’t be right? It’s all in my head right? I think I’m just thinking that especially because I watched the movie called, “Still Alice”. It’s a really scary if something like that happens to you…

School starts this Wednesday so let’s stay optimistic and read lots! ๐Ÿ˜€
#andstopeatingnuggetslikeitsfinalsseason #๐Ÿ˜‘ #makehealthierchoices

My fat fingers

I’m not really sure how much weight I lost since god knows when. I just know I lost some fat on my fingers….??? The ring that I wear usually, which by the way used to fit (or tight) is now kind of loose. It won’t come off if I shake my hands really hard but I was riding bumper cars with my sister when I went to Quebec, and the steering wheel brushed against my finger and my ring came off. The operator saw that and turned the switch button off (thanks man ^^). Well, it was actually only me and my sister riding the bumper cars, no one else was in line for it lol.

I’m peeling

For the first time in my life, I got a sun burn. This happened when I was in Orlando, Daytona Beach with my sister. Holyyyyyyyy the beach was niceeeeeeee. Anyways.

I put on sunscreen too and I tan kinda easily. Probably because we’re both like our dad. The good thing is, we tan and never got… or didn’t get sunburnt.

It hurt a bit when we were still there and I had a shoulder bag. And I’m sitting here on my sofa back at home witnessing my skin peeling off. Not ganna lie. It’s kinda weird but satisfying at the same time. I’m a snake. Hissss ๐Ÿ

August 5th

My sister turned 18 today. I’m kind of disappointed that the gift that I got for her is a bit late. I haven’t told her what it is. She’s just ganna have to find out when it arrives. I was debating if I should get the fast shipping option but it was expensive. ๐Ÿ˜ข I hope she likes it when it arrives. My biggest worry is that she might not like the colour. Well… she can use the gift receipt. ๐Ÿ˜

I’m not going to say, “omg, I can’t believe my sister is already 18”. No I can believe it hahaha. I’m just surprised she can now travel with me all the way to Florida and also drive. Soon she’ll be legal to drink and drive around by herself. That bitch better continue to stay healthy, strong, and smart. โ™ก

I was eating dinner today…

I was taking a break today at work. Because I was so hungry (like I always am LOL). I walked over to Starbucks and got a roasted tomato and mozzarella panini and a grande caramel espresso. The total came to approximately $10. Basically, I realized that my dinner was equivalent to an hour of work. ฮฃ(๏ฟฃใƒญ๏ฟฃlll)

Also 20 minutes wasted because that’s how long my break was. (And I don’t get paid for that 20 minutes smh.) I shouldn’t complain for a lot of reasons but still…

(ใƒŽ ใ…Žใ……ใ…Ž)ใƒŽ ย  ๅฝกโ”ปโ”โ”ป ย *flips table*

Orange cheeks

So lately I’ve been into colouring my cheeks orange. I think you’re supposed to do pink or something if you want to look pale but I’ve kind of given up on that. And I felt like orange looked better on me. I feel like it’s also the brush that I use that makes it hard for me to achieve a “normal” or “casual makeup” look. I just use the biggest brush that I have. I don’t have a special blush brush or anything. I didn’t think blush brush could cost like $20 for a decent looking one so I didn’t get one. Maybe after this month’s pay check… Anyways, I basically went from a drunk look to a clown look and after I watched tutorials on YouTube (lol) I think I can draw them… Alright now. Hahahaha. Now, I admit that I like things that majority of people probably wouldn’t. I liked drawing in my cheeks orange harshly along the cheek bone and apple of my cheeks. But I did look drunk from other people’s perspective. It also made my entire face look more big and red. Lol. Afterwards, I drew them only on the apples of my cheek and I immediately changed it up compared to the “drunk” look. This I called it the “clown” look because that’s kind of what I remind myself.  

 And then after YouTube tutorials, I started drawing them lighter and more narrower? I don’t know how to explain. I ain’t no makeup guru. ๐Ÿ˜‘ Drawing them lighter was the best improvement but I also like them harsh because they should up more in photos. Other people might thing that’s weird but I don’t know, I personally think it adds a pop of noticeable colours to your cheek rather than making your face look contoured. 

Goldie and the Baseball

When I went on a walk with Goldie on Friday, we went to a park. I live near it. So when we went, there wasn’t anyone in the field so I let my dog off the leash. She’s obedient and comes when I tell her to come (most of the time). And especially because no one was in the field but me and Goldie, I was less worried. But when I let her off the leash, she immediately spotted a baseball. I told her no but she grabbed it anyways. I even told her to drop it but she just munched on it. And whenever I tried to steal it, she would run away. Lol, after a while though, I caught her and threw the baseball across the field. Made sure to put her back on the leash before I threw the ball. I should bring our own ball when we go to the park again. But the thing is, she never brings it back to give it to me.